You can count on Him
By Lori Proffett
The prayer that my heart has always prayed, even as a very young and inexperienced mother, was for my children to always follow Jesus. From the first day in the hospital, I would lay my hands on my newborn baby, in the little glass bassinet and pray this over their lives.
It was 18 years later that I watched my oldest child walk away from a missionary calling on her life. I watched anger overtake her. I watched her choose to live outside of God’s will for her. She turned against me, and literally hated me. My heart ached beyond anything I had ever dreamed.
There is nothing you can do when that happens. Nothing. Your words as a parent cease to impact. You become their enemy. I bloodied my knees for my daughter…and even doing so…nothing changed. All I could do was watch her helplessly.
Deserted by believers
I was criticized, ridiculed, and rejected by a community of believers I never dreamed would do such a thing. I watched them condemn her and leave her for the wolves. I watched sin overtake her.
All I could do was pray. That’s it, PRAY. Soon, I found my prayers changing from, “Change her, rescue her Lord,” to “Lord, show her WHO You are, remind her of Your word, let her experience Your faithfulness even if it is painful.”
I reminded Him of His promise that He would never let go or leave her. I reminded Him (and myself) that she belongs to Him first and that I trusted Him with her no matter what path He took her down, whether by force, or by her own choice.
We are still in this battle 12 years later. He has shown His faithfulness and love in unbelievable ways. Even though she is still walking this path, He has revealed Himself to and through her. She goes to church, she is raising her children to love Him. She tells perfect strangers about Him. You see, His Holy Spirit is inside of her and won’t let her go.
Then I remembered, I am in that same boat. I sin every day, and He never leaves. I rebel and He holds me tight. My heart belongs to Him. His word tells us, “I will never leave you nor forsake you” Hebrews 13:5. In Deuteronomy 31:6, as a parent, His word promises us, “Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble in dread before them, for it is the Lord you God who goes with you. He will not fail you or abandon you.”
God never gives up. He never fails. He ALWAYS wins. This life we choose to live is promised to have trouble in this world, but it is also promised that He has overcome this world. (John 16:33).
But we are to “take heart!” What does that mean? Take heart. The Collins Dictionary defines it like this, “ to be courageous; to regain one’s courage; Take heart, help will arrive shortly and everything will be fine.”
You see, I know my Lord, and I know He fights for us. I know, unlike the believers that abandoned me and my daughter it is impossible for Him to do so, because it goes against His Word.
My daughter still has a lot to do to walk the path of straight and narrow, but you know what? So do I. So I will “take heart” because He told me to, and I can trust and count on Him.